Meaningful Connections

Hello Dollfie Dreamers!

 

Lately, I've been thinking about the significance of my DD Miku, what she means to me, and where she fits into my life. Miku brings so much joy into my life, and I would have never expected her positive influence on me when I adopted her. I would like to discuss my life as it has been the last few months, and how my daughter fits into the overall picture. I hope maybe some of you can relate to my story and possibly find comfort, inspiration, hope, and share your experiences with me.

 

As a senior in college, I've really been going through some rough times. I've been identified to have moderate depression and extremely high anxiety this semester, and I've been struggling with it secretly every day for the past year and a half. Constant mood swings, mental breakdowns, bouts of endless crying, shallow breathing, irregular heartbeat, headaches, sore neck, sleeplessness, fatigue, and overall lack of motivation have really pushed me to seek counseling this past month (which thankfully is provided by my university for free).

I've been so completely exhausted struggling with my health and my sanity because of stress and anxiety induced by school and my old job that I had for a year and a half. So, I've decided to seek help and things are back on track! I've been getting counseling, and I've been put on a new prescription that has balanced my mood. I've also lost 20 lbs a few months ago, eating a balanced diet, and I've been going to the gym three times a week along with picking up daily yoga practice.

 

Therefore, I've been talking with my councilor about visual cues that can help me to relax and de-stress, and one of those things is my DD Miku! I usually have Miku sit with me whenever I play video games, work on coursework, study, or relax. Sometimes to meditate I like to condition and comb her hair, which is so calming. There is something significant about being able to care for something other than myself (maintenance, dressing, customization, dusting, cleaning) that really lets me forget about my daily worries, fears, and stress and just focus on something else in a productive way. Also, I've been away from my boyfriend of 4+ years, and since he helped me adopt her I'm always reminded of his compassion and love when I look at her.

 

I originally bought her on a whim because I am obsessed with Hatsune Miku, and I just saw her as a large Figma or Real Action Hero at first. After I received her, I grew so attached to her and instantly started to see her as a little sister figure of sorts. I've been buying her outfits and wigs, and I recently got her a SD carrying case so I take take her outdoors for photography!

Something about Miku (and the DD hobby) satisfies me in a way that figure collecting cannot. I used to be crazy about Nendoroids because of their pose-ability and swap-able parts, but DDs have put them to shame for good. I love that I can make things by hand for Miku, and also buy her cheap accessories as well as "off-brand" clothing. I refuse to buy bootleg anime figures, but I can buy whatever brand accessories and clothing for Miku as I see fit!

 

Anyway, I'm sort of rambling at this point... but I just wanted to emphasize how much my Miku means to me. She brings a lot of happiness and smiles into my life when I've been otherwise struggling with stress, depression, and anxiety. She reminds me of how much I'm loved. Miku inspires me to never let go of my inner child, and to remain positive and hopeful.

 

I really hope I can stay with the Dollfie Dream hobby for years to come, and continue to find happiness!

I can definitely relate to this. For me, it's not completely the dolls that help me with my issues rather, they're sort of a proxy of that. My main outlet is creative things and with these dolls I can make either totally new characters or create the ones that have been in my head for years and I find the more I mess with or think about making one the more their character evolves. I'd love to write these stories although I doubt I'm very good at writing, and even if I was this is still helping me develop them in personality by their interactions with others and physically of course. It's very relaxing to me to just imagine and create and this is an excellent outlet for that.

 

Geez I rambled too.

I'm glad Miku's helping to make you feel more content in your day-to-day life! I can relate to that a bit, too. I've only had my girl for a little under two months, but admiring and taking care of her has been providing me with some pretty consistent smiles, and she's helped to ease my loneliness a bit.

 

It's great to hear that counselling is going well for you. I hope you continue to find your way out of the rut you've been in and make lots of happy memories with your boyfriend, Miku, and any other dolls you may adopt!